Just wanted to post this pic here. This group of people and youth are some of my favorite people! They never let you down and are always there to lend a hand or an ear! This youth group are a great bunch of kids, even though Whitney wouldn't get in the pic. They made this pic just for me! Thanks guys...and girls, I love ya all!
Monday, February 16, 2009
I went to church yesterday and it was great. But I'm having issues with people not acting when the spirit moves them. How do you ignore such a powerful feeling? I get so overwhelmed when I feel the spirit that I know when I am being spoken to. It's a feeling I can't ignore and can't shake off. So how does one feel the spirit for someone else and that person doesn't respond. Bro. Larry felt it too, but no one moved. I still have this feeling this morning. I don't know exactly who it is, but it was someone in both services yesterday. All I can do is that I pray that this person can no longer shake the spirit and follow.
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Today was just weird! I started out in a crappy mood, took a test, didn't do so well. Then I had a great lunch with Ashlee and felt good until I went and took my second test which I think I bombed worse than the first test. But I wasn't really upset with myself because I didn't study and felt like I just didn't care. So when I came home, my husband and I had another deep discussion which ended up with both of us compromising. But isn't that part of marriage. You give a little and take a little. I think we going to be ok, just as long as we can compromise and make the other happy. Soooo, point for God and Leslie and none once again for the devil. We kicking some devil booty. So tonightI get to rest a little better and get ready for a great weekend with my BEST friends. Della, Ashlee and myself gonna have a girl's weekend and I'm excited...no cleaning the house or cooking supper or washing clothes, I'm ready! Oh wait, I do got to wash clothes before tomorrow afternoon though, or I won't have anything to wear, LOL!
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
I'm struggling, once again. I just don't know why I can't seem to let go. I want to give it all to God, but the wait is hard. I know I can't do this without him, but my heart is heavy. I stay in prayer and know that I want to do His will, but the world is trying to bring me down. Do I stay or do I go? I don't want to hurt anymore, I don't want to feel this way. God, I know you hear me and you have a plan for me, just take my load and ease my pain. Lead and I will follow, talk and I will listen, show and I will do.
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Not really addicted to this but I find it quite forgiving, just like God. I pray a whole lot and find myself just talking, I think of God as my listener (which he does), but seeing things in writing and being able to just write or type whatever you feel, gives me a sense of unloading things. I've been struggling for a while now on issues in my life; My marriage, my education, things that can really deter your faith. But the one thing that I always turn to is God. As I think back over my life and things that I have done, He has always been there. No matter how far I tried to get away from Him. So why fight or turn from something that is so important and has been so consistent in this messed up world. I feel peace and happiness, I can find the hope in hopeless situations. I laugh at the devil when he throws the walls in my face. No matter what the devil or this world throws at me, tells me, or gives me I will turn to my God. I sometimes wonder if the devil realizes that God's children become stronger in Faith with what he deals out. When God gets me through things I just want to laugh and say "HAHAHA, what now devil, you're beneath me, you are nothing! LOL, saying that just builds my foundation in Christ!
Monday, February 9, 2009
Sunday, February 8, 2009
I decided to try this blogging thing. Two of my really good friends are doing it, so I'm giving it a try. Today was an awesome day! I love Sundays! I get up ready to go to my church. Yes, I have a church, I am a member of a church! I love Immanuel Baptist! There's not anything in this world that could keep me away from it. I also love to sing and feel that my worship comes from singing. I feel so moved when I really get into a song, the Spirit just fills me with so much peace and love. I sang today in church, although my voice was still scratchy from the WinterJam concert. But, I did it, because I truly feel that God leads me. I am nothing without him. Tonight I am being baptized. Although I have been once, I am being Baptized a Baptist! I can't wait, it's such an awesome feeling of cleanliness. I hope to feel renewed!